I was officially diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin's Mediastinal Large B-cell Lymphoma in July 2010. I was seventeen. I was in Form 5; my last year of secondary school, preparing to sit for the SPM examinations.

I would consider myself an average teenager - a girl who just wanted to have fun, with her quirks; trying to survive life as a teen.

It all started with me coughing non-stop after a bout of the common flu. Despite making several trips to my family doctor's clinic, the cough just won't seem to go away even after months of being under medication. Several prescriptions of cough drops later, my family doctor suggested to my parents and I to have a chest X-ray done for me.

A large tumour was discovered; situated in between my lungs, right in front of my heart. The tumour was pressing against my trachea, causing me to have slight breathing difficulties and all that coughing.

I stopped going to school almost immediately. My parents and I went on this journey to seek advice from specialists regarding my condition.

Next, I had a needle biopsy done which confirmed that the tumour consisted of active cancer cells. I had to go for a surgical biopsy to classify what kind of cells were they, so the proper treatment could be administered right away.

The cancer had then spread to my pancreas, kidneys and liver.

Afterwards, I went through six cycles of chemotherapy(R-CHOP) and self-studied for the rest of the year. I was lucky that I was fit enough to sit for my SPM examinations at the end of the year right after my last chemotherapy session scheduled for me was completed. Or else, I wouldn't be able to successfully graduate from secondary school. I had a lot of people telling me to just skip the examinations and relax for a bit, but my stubbornness got the better of me. I was determined enough then and thankfully, I did alright. At least I could fully focus on getting myself treated without worrying that I did not complete even my most basic education in Malaysia.

At the end of 2010, I went for a PET scan. My tumour did shrink, but it was still there.

When 2011 came, I went for radiotherapy this time. I had 25 fractions done.

I thought I was on the road to recovery at long last, but unfortunately…no.

A few days before my scheduled PET scan, I felt extreme soreness at the right side of my abdomen. It made me lose sleep at night, and my coughing fit was back. The oncologist in charge of my treatment for radiotherapy felt something near my right kidney. I went for a PET scan the very next day, and found out that my cancer had spread again. New tumours surrounded both my kidneys once more and my lower spine. Radiotherapy was crossed out from the possible ways of treatment, since the radiation will damage my kidneys, affecting their function tremendously.

I had three more cycles of chemotherapy(R-ICE) done. This proved effective for awhile, but after every session - the cancer would get aggressive and we went back to square one. Finally, it was decided that I was to undergo an autologous stem cell transplant. I had my stem cells harvested, and I went through a few days of high-dose chemotherapy before the transplant. I was hospitalised for a month. I had zero immunity, and blood infections which caused high fever haunted me. I made more trips back to the hospital to rid of the infections.

I am currently under quarantine and recuperating from the transplant; dealing with the side effects from both the transplant and my radiotherapy sessions - causing breathing problems, dizziness, fatigue, etc. The latter is the cause of a now weak heart.

I went for another 27 fractions of radiotherapy due to a tumour above my left kidney discovered by a PET scan in December 2011. My left kidney has lost its function.

Through another bout of coughing, I was advised to go for a chest X-ray and have an ultrasound done at the abdominal area. It is confirmed that my cancer relapsed for the third time. I am now under a new kind of medication.

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So much had happened throughout me battling cancer.

Other than the physical challenges I have to go through, I also have to deal with my decreasing level of self-esteem and emotional health.

I do admit, I am a typical girl when it comes to me wanting to look pretty. You may call it vanity, but I say it's just me wanting to look presentable and good.

Imagine, I went bald twice; not once, but twice! Surprisingly, no tears came! (I later realised that it’s the process of waiting for my hair to grow again that’s truly challenging.)

This time, I hope I can truly make a full recovery and do my bit for the community. Also, hopefully my cancer journey as a teenager managed to inspire you and give you a more positive outlook on life. Quite a number of us assume that cancer only affects adults. On the contrary, I am a living example that that mindset is certainly untrue. It's not for me to tell you how to live your life, but you only live once, so treasure your life and your loved ones while you still can. Stop and smell the roses once in awhile, and you'll find that life is so fulfilling with just happiness and good health. A successful career, good grades - definite bonuses and great goals, but with life being so unpredictable; you'll never know what might happen next. Be content with what you already have, count your blessings and live life to the fullest without any regrets.

Believe me, I'm speaking from personal experience.

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Hello readers.

I have a lot to blog about actually.

But recent events are making me feel tired, emotionally.

I'll update when said events resolve.

For now, to those of you who wonder - I am doing alright for now. I'm recuperating at home, living every single day knowing it is a blessing that I am still living.

I hope my readers stay safe and happy.

Take care, and cheers.

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Hello readers! I'll be keeping this short for now.

First of all, I've completed all 27 fractions of radiotherapy. I'd a blood test done, and I'll only get to go for a PET scan three months later. As the effect of radiation is still there, going for a scan now will produce inaccurate results.

Three months. Anything can happen in three months.

I do worry. I do feel fear.

I guess there is nothing I can do but wait.

I'll try to update in detail soon.

Meanwhile, do look out for a special guest article by a Mr. David Haas very soon! I can assure you, this article will do a lot in enlightening you; it doesn't matter whether you are a cancer patient, cancer survivor, a family or friend of a cancer patient, or a healthy individual.

Cheers, and Happy 29th of February!

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Hello readers.

I feel obliged to apologise to everyone because I haven't been updating, but I think I'm not going to.

The pleasing disease needs to be cured. Or cancer won't.

All that everyone needs to know for now:

Cancer is back in my life once more.
I'll give the details later.

For now, I'll just like to spend some time with my family.

By the way, hope this new layout is well-received!

Cheers.

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Hello again, readers!

This entry is dedicated to everybody who left me tags in my Cbox. Unfortunately, I think some of them got deleted because there were too many words of encouragement and support(my sincerest thanks to everyone who left me a tag!), and at that time I didn't change my settings for my Cbox accountto keep more messages. I managed to retrieve most of them; those that I didn't manage to retrieve back, I really cannot reply you but I can only give you my thanks for your encouraging words and for some of you, suggestions of alternative treatments.

I'll be replying tags from the earliest to the most recent.

Here we go again!

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@nn, thank you for believing in me! (':

@Pn. Wong, teacher, is that you? :D Thanks so much for dropping by! You take care too! (:

@ayasan, I will definitely try! Thanks!

@C, thanks! Will do! (:

@xx, easier said than done, but will definitely try! Thank you! (:

@guest, thank you! (:

@Edwin, hello there! Thank you so much for your concern, but for now, I have no intentions of setting up a PayPal account. I have my reasons, and this wil be further explained in a separate blog post. I certainly am grateful and glad that there are so many Samaritans out there willing to help me out though!

@uga..., thank you for the love! And I do appreciate the fact that people are keeping me in their prayers! (:

@guest, haha, I doubt that everyone loves me, but I do know that there are people who do! Thanks!

@hope, no pun intended, but I hope so too! Thanks!

@Unwritten, thanks! I hope that everything will be okay, eventually. (:

@candice, nice of you to drop by! And thanks! (:

@hong, hey there! Thank you so much for your tag! Well, I was too tired from my stem cell transplant and the side effects were wearing me out months afterwards to even go online, hence the lack of updates. I've been trying to update as often as possible now. Thanks for checking often!

@way, awwww, thanks! (:

@vivian, hello there! I do apologise for the super late reply. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, I do hope you're on the road to recovery! Sure we can be friends! Feel free to e-mail me here: dancingpapercranes@live.com

Hope to hear from you soon, Vivian! (:

@ex-junior, hi there! Thanks for your well-wishes! (:

@iqa, awwww, thank you! I'm glad that my story could broaden your perspectives. Will do! (:

@LJ, that's really nice to know! Thank you!

@JW, thank you so much! You too!

@~Si3wLiNg~, when I was still undergoing the transplant, I'd been advised by my doctor to not dabble with alternative treatments, because it could bring more harm to my health if the effects from both treatments were to clash. If you would really like to let me know more about energy healing, you could send me an e-mail to dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thanks!

@Nikisa Izas, thank you! (:

@Believer, wow, I'm really flattered! Thank you so much for your compliment and the well-wishes! :D

@kalis, awwwww! Thanks! (':

@h, I don't really understand your tag, but thanks for dropping by anyway!

@Zettiey, hi there! No, I never tried alternative treatments before because I'd been advised by my doctor to not involve myself with alternative treatments. The results of alternative treatments vary among patients - it could be harmful, it could cure one of cancer. Meanwhile, I'm not going to take any risks. Thanks for the well-wishes, though! (:

@Hope, I'm glad to hear that! Thanks! (:

@Lynette, thanks so much! :]

@ugashni, thanks for the love! (:

@Somebody, thanks for keeping me in your prayers! (:

@Arynna, will do! Thank you! (:

@X, awwww, thank you so much! :]

@charmaine, my doctor is a very knowledgeable haematologist too, and I trust him in treating me. Thanks for the info anyway! (:

@AAA, appreciating the love from across the Causeway! Thank you! (:

@blogwalker, thank you! I think I'm doing alright at the moment. I really hope that I'm well on the road to recovery! (:

@Alvin Lee, hey! I saw your Facebook message, but haven't got to replying you yet. Do bear with me, and sorry about that! (:

@Anonymous, thank you!

@stranger, thank you for the compliment! (':

@roslinda, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! I'm really sorry to hear about your niece's condition though. I hope she's doing well and is recovering!

@AnotherOne, that's really nice to know! Thank you so much! (:

@cha, I won't give up that easily. Thanks! (:

@kit, definitely! ;)

@fran, thank you so much for the compliments! I'm glad that my story helped you realised how lucky you are. Cheers! (:

@Dorothea, hey! No way would I just regard you as just another stranger! That would be disrespecting you and everyone else that had commented even though I don't personally know them in real life. Thank you so much for your tag and for keeping me in your prayers, I really appreciate that a lot! (':

@Mika, nice to know! Thanks! (:

@Sheree, well, I'm sure all of us have our complaints about life. It's just about who's more fortunate and who isn't. What life throws to us, we have to face instead of running away. Anyway, thank you so much for everything! :'D

@leonie g, hello there, reader of the same name! Thank you so much for the well-wishes and the compliments! Super appreciated. (':

@mizah, I will. (:

@angie, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! And there's no need to be ashamed for whining about your life. We all do, actually. It's what makes us human. (:

@paula, thank you for the prayers! (:

@HI, awwww, thank you! (':

@Ashley, thank you so much Ashley! I really appreciate your tag. :D

@c, thank you! (:

@Jasmine, thanks for the well-wishes! (:

@ur junior, you don't need to hope. I will stay strong. (:

@nadya, will do! Thank you!

@zah, thanks! Will do!

@ins, thank you! (:

@BK, thank you so much for the well-wishes and for dropping by my blog! I really appreciate it a lot. (:

@Carmen, ah, thank you so much! :'D

@Hanne, thank you! (:

@destiny, thanks!

@Clara, thank you for the compliment! I'm glad to know that I inspire people. It's the least I could do. (:

@nick, thank you! (:

@Vanessa,, hi there! Thank you so much for your compliments! They really do make me feel better about myself. (':

@Grant, I won't! (:

@c, thank you so much for leaving so many tags. (:

@Gail, really nice to know! Thanks! :D

@yishien, thank you!

@Jane, thank you! Much appreciated. (:

@ShazrolAzly, thank you so much! I really appreciate that! (:

@Jen, my thanks to you too! Yes, I'll keep that in mind. (:

@jy, will do! Thanks! (:

@krystie, thank you so much for your support! :'D

@mic, thanks! (:

@cheering you on, thank you! That's really nice to know! :D

@Alvina, thank you for keeping me in your prayers! Really appreciate that a lot! (':

@anon, thank you!

@asd, I'm so sorry for the late reply! Thank you so much for wanting to help me out though! (:

@Ash, awwwww, thank you! (':

@Yu Hong, thank you! (:

@hellosunshine, thank you for your tag! :]

@YSL, thank you! (:

@suzane, you're right on that one! Thank you so much! :]

@MH, thanks for the info! (:

@ashley, thank you! (:

@evelyn, hello there! Thank you so much for wanting to help me out! Financially, I'm currently quite alright for now. But if there's anything, I'll definitely send you an e-mail. Thanks once again! (':

@Inti-an, thank you! :D

@addin syah, glad to know my story inspires you! ;)

***I'll give another proper update soon, I hope!

Cheers, everyone!

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All responses here are to those who had commented on my blog post titled 'here comes the hardest part.' I will contact those who didn't want their comments to be published through e-mail as soon as possible.

Generally, those that had asked me to give my bank account/contact details to them through e-mail will be contacted again through e-mail as well. Since I'm done with my transplant and things have settled down a tiny bit financially compared to then, I think it's only polite for me to say thank you for the kind thought; I never replied to them immediately due to my going through the tedious treatment process and feeling utterly too tired to even go online. They wanted to help, but I didn't give them the necessary information. Hope this clears up some misunderstandings out there!

I'll be replying from the earliest comments to the most recent.

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@jorene pu, thanks! (:

@fyah, thanks for the well wishes! It's perfectly fine that you couldn't help me financially, it's the thought that really counts. (:

@Sylvi, I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Shar Linn, I sincerely appreciate your comment, it's truly full of wise words. It's really great to know, and I don't feel that bad about myself being 'weak' once in awhile anymore. Thank you so much for the support and encouragement, it's much appreciated and needed while I try to kick cancer in the ass. (': I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! Thank you so much again, Shar Linn! Cheers! :D

@Naziha, thanks so much! Really appreciated. (:

@nityakumar, thank you so much! I shall try to contact you soon. (:

@Carinn, I think I thanked you and the rest in Sunway College JB so often now, I'm starting to think that I'm nagging at you lot. Heh. And I don't mean to make your mum or anyone cry reading about my predicament! Oh gosh. D: But I'm truly touched at what you, your family and our friends have been doing to help me out. Thank you so much Rinn. (': <3

@Michael, will be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Paul Low, thank you for the comment Paul! Cheers! (:

@Cikgu Adilah, cikgu!! Thank you so much! *hugs!* (':

@fashu, thanks Fashu! <3 (:

@Jean Chu, thank you for keeping my family and I in your prayers! Will send you an e-mail really soon! (:

@xox `Lyng` xox, thank you so much! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@CYJ, I'm glad to know that my story inspired you and your roommate. Thank you both for your help, but I won't post my bank account details nor my Facebook profile in my cancer blog. I find it too public. You didn't leave me your contact details either, so I can't get back to you personally at the moment. If you're reading this and still want to contact me, please e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! Thank you once more, and please send my thanks to your roommate as well! Cheers! :D

@Komol, hello there! Will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@Anonymous, my family and I have our reasons to not publish about my condition in the papers. This will be explained in a future blog post. Anyway, thank you!

@st, will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@qi, thank you so much! (:

@David Teoh, hey David! I'm really grateful for the help that you and the rest of the peeps in Taylor's had done for me. I know all of you had done your best in trying to help me out, but because of certain situations, all of you couldn't do more for me. I'll explain in my blog as soon as possible why. Meanwhile, thank you so much for everything! Please send my sincerest thanks to the rest as well. Cheers! (:

@Anonymous, I'm sorry to hear about your uncle having cancer too. I'm glad to hear that he can get a suitable bone marrow though! (: Hope his condition has stabilised and he's doing much better now. Will send you an e-mail soon!

@Rebecca Koo, hey girl! I'm so sorry for the late reply concerning this matter. I am still grateful for all you and the rest had done for me. (': Aren't we friends now, by the way? ;) Haha. When I'm free from cancer and all, maybe we can meet up with Jia Ying and a few other mutual friends and we can get to know each other better. (: Thank you for keeping me in your prayers! :'D

@Anonymous, thank you so much! Will contact you through e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@pangzter, I'm so sorry for the late reply! Funds-wise, I think it's alright for now. (: But at the moment, you can help by being a friend to me! I'm open to new friendships at this point in life. It helps me widen my social circle even though I'm stuck at home because I have to be quarantined. Anyway, thank you so much for leaving a comment! :]

@Lee Yue, I didn't notice any typo errors! But it's okay, no worries at all! (: Thank you so much, but I think it's alright for now. Cheers, and hope you're doing well!

@StereoHearts, thank you so much! It's nice to know that I have constant support from people like yourself. (: You didn't leave me your contact details, so I can't do so. But thank you anyway! :]

@Christinaa!, Chrissie dear! I'll contact you really, really soon, okay! (:

@zahrah, awwwwwww! Thanks so much, Zahrah! :'D Glad to know that I inspired you, in some way or another. Will contact you as soon as possible! (:

@Anonymous, will be sending you an e-mail really soon!

@Rin, hello there! Nah, don't worry! I don't think that way at all. It's just that at that time, I was already under treatment(stem cell transplant), and I don't want to meddle with alternative treatments while I'm undergoing the transplant. Thanks for the information and the encouragement though! It's really appreciated. (: I'll definitely do my research about this. Meanwhile, I hope your sister is responding well to this treatment! Cheers, and take care! :D

@maurice!~!@, man! Thanks so much for dropping by! :'D

@~MY~, will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@Alyssa, alright! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@Anonymous, thank you for the information! Will definitely look it up.

@Anonymous, awwwww! I'm glad that you defeated cancer! I'm really happy for you! :D You're right, cancer isn't all that bad as it had helped me learn so much about life and how I shouldn't take things for granted. It's high time that cancer should be leaving my life now! Hahah. You being in my predicament before will definitely understand the trials and tribulations of being a cancer patient. Thanks for leaving a comment and telling me about your story, it's really appreciated! Hope to hear from you more if you see this reply! Cheers, and take care! ;)

@QiTing Darling, hey there! Will be contacting you through e-mail/Facebook shortly! I have yet to thank you, Ah Yuan, and the rest of your family properly. Hope all of you can remain patient with me! (:

@Anonymous, wow. You never knew people like me existed unless they're from the newspapers or storybooks? I hope that with my story, it managed to widen your horizons about people like me really existing and aren't merely fictional people/strangers. Will be contacting you really soon! And thanks! It's nice to know that I'm an inspiration to you. (:

@Anonymous, hi there! My email is dancingpapercranes@live.com, but I won't be on MSN using this account. Cheers!

@Shen Ni, thank you so much! I definitely will do my best to stay strong and keep fighting. Will be sending you an e-mail soon! You take care too. (:

@Angie, hello Angeline! I'm really sorry to hear about your uncle's passing. I'm sure he fought the good fight well. May he rest in peace. I will continue this battle of mine too. Thank you so much for leaving a comment.

@Bing, thank you! (:

@Nicolette, hey! In fact, I do know who you are! Sherylee's sister, right? (: Thank you so much for keeping my family and me in your prayers. Also, thanks so much for your comment, it does mean a lot to me. (': Cheers!

@ashL?y~*, you can e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! And thank you! (:

@ss tan, will be e-mailing you soon!

@nicoleeeee :), I didn't do much for you actually, Nic! But it's the least I can do, since I couldn't offer anything other than emotional support to you then. I really appreciate you and the rest being there for me, you guys mean so much to me as well. (': <3

@sam, will be sending you an e-mail soon!

@Anonymous, I did consider setting up a PayPal account, but things were so hectic back then, and I wasn't up to it physically to doing anything online. This PayPal matter will be brought up in a separate blog entry. Anyway, thanks!

@vanessa, hi! Yes, I do know Nicole and Chiara. (: Financially, I think it's alright for now. So sorry for the late reply! But I do appreciate your wanting to help me out. Thank you so much! :'D

@suelynn, so I heard! I really appreciate that JJ and Kay Kay helped spread the news of my situation, thank to my friends who tweeted them about me. (: Thank you so much, Sue Lynn! I'll be sending you an e-mail as soon as possible. :D

@Weng Hui, hello there! Thank you so much for your comment! (': Will send you an e-mail very soon!

@JieWeN, hello there! Thank you for your encouraging comment. Sorry to hear about your spine problem though, hope it's on its way to getting better. (: I'm happy for you staying strong and striving for the best despite your problem and pains.Your brother is right though - please do not overexert yourself, for it may affect your health even more. Do take care of your health, and cheers!

@Janny1120, thank you so much! Will be dropping you an e-mail soon! (:

@Shawn, hello there! I will contact you through Facebook soon. But just to let everyone know - I am under this haematologist in Kuala Lumpur now. Still, I'll contact you just to let you know that I got your comment. Cheers!

@xiaocass, thank you very much! Glad that my story has touched you somehow. (': Will contact you through e-mail soon!

@mable, will e-mail you soon! And thank you! (:

@Wil Sern, you didn't leave me your contact details, so I'm afraid I can't contact you. Thank you for wanting to help me out though! (:

@Kimberly, oh gosh, I read through your comment again, and I just realised I wasn't supposed to publish it. I'm so sorry! D: Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers though, I really appreciate the thought a lot. (: And your comment did bring some cheer to me! ;)

@Maureen, no problem at all! I don't expect everyone who know about my condition to contribute. It's the thought that counts, in the end. Thank you for the support! (:

@Sharm, hello there! Thank you for the well wishes and for reading my entries! Your Facebook link has expired, but I think I found your Twitter account. Will contact you soon! (:

@Samantha, hey there! You didn't leave me your contact details, and your Blogger profile link has expired; I can't contact you at the moment. Thank you so much for your wanting to help, though! (:

@Menny aka Carmen, thank you so much for your comment and for keeping me in your prayers! I'll be contacting you through e-mail really soon! (:

@Anonymous, I'll be e-mailing you soon! Thank you for your comment! (:

@Jon, I'll contact you as soon as possible. Thanks!

@sylerhkan, thank you so much for your comment! And don't worry, I don't mind the language at all. Some people may find it vulgar, but it's fine for me. In fact, as vulgar as vulgarities are - sometimes I find them appropriate to describe certain situations in ways that normal words couldn't. Your comment did make me smile, by the way! Thanks once again! :D

@Ju Chin, hey! I'll contact you through Facebook soon. And thanks! (:

@Benetoon aka Bene Chian, I'm really sorry for the late reply! I haven't been online till recently due to me recuperating from my stem cell transplant. I did the transplant at a hospital in KL. Thank you for your concern, but I think it's alright for the time being. :] Cheers!

@SK, I'm really sorry to hear about your mum. Being someone who has a kin/family member that went through blood cancer, I'm sure you understand my predicament, and especially what my family members are going through. Thank you so much for your willingness to help and your encouragement! Hope you're doing well.

@huiyin-denoisemaker, I know I'm blessed because there are a lot of friends and nice people out there who are willing to help me out. (: I'm glad to know that I can be of inspiration to you and the rest! Thank you for your comment and for keeping me in your prayers, I really appreciate it a lot. Hope you're doing fine! Cheers! :D

@Sean, hey Sean! I saw your Facebook message, but I haven't got to replying it yet. I'll reply you there really soon, and thank you so much for the well wishes! (:

@ierawkxz, hello there! It's okay, it's the thought that counts! Thank you for praying for me, and thank you for offering to hear me out when I need someone to talk to. I really appreciate that a lot, since friends are really a huge factor in me staying strong to beat cancer. (: I'll e-mail you very soon! ;)

@Shermaine, hello there! Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! I really appreciate that a lot! (': Cheers!

@Anonymous, hello there! I'm pretty stubborn, and I love to learn, so I really would like to continue my studies, given the chance. (: Thank you so much, and I'll be dropping you an e-mail as soon as possible! ;)

@eexuan, will be contacting you very soon! Thank you so much, by the way! (:

@e for ecstasy, I don't have a PayPal account at the moment, but thank you so much for your willingness to help. And thanks for the link as well! I'm sorry to hear about his passing, but I'm sure he fought hard to the very end. Will take some time out to read his entries. Once again, thanks! (:

@Anonymous, yes it is, actually! My treatment has ended for now, and hopefully that's the end of everything! Thank you so much for wanting to help. (:

@janicechian, Janice! I'll contact you through Facebook really soon! Have yet to thank you and Joanne properly. (':'

@Andrea, hello there! Firstly, thank you so much for your encouraging words! (': And also for keeping me in your prayers. As deadly and sucky as cancer is, it's nice to know that I have made many new friends because of this, widening my perspectives in life and getting to know more people from different walks of life. I'll be sending you an e-mail really soon, do keep a lookout for it! Cheers! (:

@meowth aka aileen, thank you so much! Will e-mail you soon!

@ankakashi, I miss you and your flowers. Sigh. (': You're such a dear, Anna-chan. Glad that my blog managed to help you and your mum reconcile, though I doubt that the argument would have lasted long anyway. ;) Can't wait to give you more kitty smiles in person! :P

@missroum87 aka grace, you can contact me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! I can't access to the Facebook link you'd provided though, so I'll try to contact you through your blog instead. Cheers!

@Nessa aka Nadia, hello there! (: Thank you so much for leaving a comment on my blog and for your willingness to help! I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! ;)

@xiao, I don't have a PayPal account, unfortunately. But thank you so much for wanting to help me out! (:

@Anonymous, I live in Johor, Malaysia.

@Anonymous, thank you so much! Yes, I am aware of that, so I definitely won't give up easily. (':

@linz, will be sending you an e-mail soon!

@amalina, thank you so much! Yes, I'll continue to stay strong. (:

@Jane Teh, thank you so much for leaving a comment on my blog! I really appreciate the supportive words. (': Will be contacting you really soon!

@Anonymous, thank you so much! (:

@Adiba, thank you so much! I'll contact you through e-mail really soon! :]

@Anonymous, thank you so much for your wanting to help me, but I do not have a PayPal account and I don't think I'll be opening one anytime soon. I'll explain more in another blog entry. But thanks!

@Stefanie, thanks! Will be sending you an e-mail really soon! (:

@rådicål 'dreámer, I'll still thank you, because it's good manners, it's appropriate and it's the least I can do. Thanks Daniel. (':

@Mcguyver99 aka Andrew, you didn't leave me any contact details, I'll try to contact you through your blogs. Anyway, thanks!

@Anonymous, thanks! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@Chuah Siew Lin™, hello there! Thank you so much! I'll definitely stay strong. (:

@Angela, so sorry for the late reply! But thank you so much in putting your effort into making a video for me. I'm still very touched by the video and your gesture. (':

@Anonymous, thank you for the information! Will go and check it out when I can.

@Bro Punna, hello Uncle Punna! Thank you for your well wishes. I'll try to contact you as soon as possible. (:

@Daeng Hanisah A Malek, hey Daeng! Of course I still remember you! (: Thank you so much! I'll try to contact you through Facebook. :]

@Anonymous, will send an e-mail to you soon!

@Anonymous, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! Will send an e-mail to you soon!

@Mel Koay, thank you so much for your kind words! I'll send you an e-mail as soon as possible! Cheers! (:

@Kuah Jenhan, will be sending you an e-mail soon! I'm alright with comedy, and thank you so much for the offer! When I've fully recovered and I'm no longer under quarantine, I'll try to make it to watch one of your shows! (: Cheers!

@Anonymous, hello there! Thanks so much! Glad you got your transplant over and done with. Will be contacting you really soon! (:

@Nadya Liew, hey there! I'm really sorry I couldn't reply earlier, I had complications shortly after doing my transplant. Took me some time to recuperate properly. Thank you so much, and to your parents as well! I really appreciate the kind gesture a lot. (:

@elena, thank you so much for the information, Elena! Will be contacting you as soon as possible! (:

@Wan Ting, thank you so much for your well wishes! Will be contacting you through e-mail soon! (:

@Shastri, will be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Pj, thank you so much for your comment! I'll contact you through e-mail soon. (:

@Elton, thanks so much! Will contact you really soon! (:

@Anonymous, thank you for wanting to help me out! I'll contact you through e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@qqq, yes, I was botak(bald). Not many people can say that they went bald twice throughout their whole lives. You try going bald, and see whether you actually can have the heart to type that comment out to me. (:

@Anonymous, hello Mr. Lim!! I'm so sorry for the late reply! I'll e-mail you really soon okay! Hope you're doing fine! :D

@§pinzer, will do! (:

@Nick, thank you so much for your comment! I've read some of the entries in your blog, and your comment makes a lot of sense. I'll try to personally contact you as soon as possible. Meanwhile, I'm glad you're doing well! Hope your health is improving day by day! (:

@Su Ann, thank you! I won't. (:

@Paul Tan, I'm so sorry for the late reply! I still will contact you soon though. Cheers!

@Vun, hello there! It's not that I didn't want to be specific, it's mainly because I still want to keep some of my social networking site links private and open only to my close friends and acquaintances. I have recently created a new e-mail account specially for my cancer blog, so maybe if you have any queries you can contact me here: dancingpapercranes.live.com. Anyway, thank you for dropping a comment and for wanting to help me out!

@forenseeks, I'm sorry to hear that your uncle has cancer too. I hope he is recovering well, and even better - already fully recovered! Thank you for the information and for keeping me in your prayers, as well. Cheers! (:

@Ken, will send you an e-mail soon!

@xq ♥, hey! Thank you so much! Will contact you soon! (:

@*MysL*, hey Mich! You didn't leave me your contact details, so I don't think I can contact you. :( I don't have a PayPal account though. Anyway, thank you so much for helping me out! I really appreciate the effort. (':

@Cheyenne, will send you an e-mail as soon as possible! Thank you, dear! (:

@Anonymous aka C from Singapore, it's perfectly fine if you can't contribute financially, it's the thought that counts. I really appreciate that a lot. (': Also, thank you so much for your kind comment and for keeping me in your prayers! :'D Cheers!

@hongs, hey! Thank you so much for everything you had done. (: You didn't leave me any contact details, so I really have no idea how to get back to you. D: Hopefully, if you see this reply, and if you still want to contact me, feel free to e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com. Cheers!

@Anonymous, I assume that you are C from Singapore. Thanks! (:

@ℓσgєи αυτhøɾ вєαstlч, will be contacting you really soon! Thank you!

@Missy Sasha N Mini Myra, hello there! Sure I don't mind, you were only trying to help me. (: Besides, I think letting people know about my story can inspire them in one way or another. :] I'll contact you through e-mail really soon! Thank you so much for everything! :D

@Nana, hi there junior! Thanks to you and your friends for wanting to help me out! You didn't leave me your contacts, so I can't get back to you. Still, my sincerest thanks! (:

@Roberto, thank you so much Roberto! (': I'll keep fighting the good fight, no worries there. (:

@S, thank you so much! I'll contact you as soon as possible. (:

@Ccy, it's dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thank you so much for being understanding of my situation. I'll be sending you an e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@Jaynier, I don't have a Maybank account. Sorry!

@Cherly Sim, yes, I'm Malaysian. Oh really? Thanks for the information! You didn't leave me your contacts, so I'm afraid I can't contact you personally. I hope you see this reply, late as it is! And I'm sorry about that. D:

@LadyMichelle, hello there! I'm really sorry for the late reply! D: Thank you so much for wanting to raise funds for me through your school's Interact Club. I already completed my transplant, and I hope that's the end of it! And thanks for the compliment! (:

@Natsu30, hey there! Thank you for your comment! I hope your friend is currently doing well. (: Cheers!

@soowei, thank you so much for the comment! Really appreciated! (:

@shuhui, hey there! I'll contact you really soon! Thank you so much! (:

@Anonymous, thank you! I'll send you an e-mail soon!

@Keshu, awwwww! Thank you so much, Keshu! (': Your comment means a lot to me. :'D I'm so sorry for the late reply though, I'll message you on Facebook as soon as possible. Thanks for putting in so much effort to help me out, I really appreciate that. (: You take care too!

@aishah mokhtar, I have yet to thank you and your friends properly. You and the rest did so much for me, I'm still speechless whenever I think of it. (': Will personally contact you as soon as possible. :'D

@Christine, hello there! Thank you and to your friends for wanting to help me out. (: You didn't leave me any contact details, so I'm sorry I can't get back to you. But anyway, my sincerest thanks! (':

@Dennis Lau, hello Dennis! Thank you for your comment. I will definitely check out the link you had given me. I'm glad to hear that their conditions are under control. (: I'll contact you through e-mail very soon, and thanks once again! :D

@Unknown aka Willy, congratulations for being a cancer survivor. I'm really happy for you. (: I admire my family members too, it hasn't been easy for any of them either. I'll contact you very soon, thank you so much for your comment! :]

@Jinz and Chris, thank you both so much! I'll send an e-mail really soon. (:

@milkway, hello there. I'm really sorry to hear that both your mother and brother are diagnosed with cancer as well. It must be tough on you, and on them as well. I understand that you can't help me financially, it's perfectly fine, really! It's the thought that matters the most. ;) Anyway, I wish you all the best, and I hope their conditions have improved, or better yet, they have already fully recovered from their cancers. (:

@tcs.thecross aka Chee Seng, thank you so much for your comment! I'm glad too for the encouraging words that many have been sending in, they do mean a lot to me while I keep on fighting the good fight. (: Thank you for the prayer, and thank you for doing so much for me! I wish I could contact you personally, but I don't see any contact details provided. Anyway, I hope you see this, because I just want to let you know how thankful I am for the help. (': Cheers!

@Su, thank you so much! I shall contact you through e-mail soon! (:

@Alvin Lee, will do! (:

@musings of a recluse aka Janet, hello there! Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers as well as for the well wishes! I really appreciate them a lot. (': I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, I hope he's doing much better now! I think if you do regular check-ups and keep healthy, you should be quite alright. (: I'll try to contact you when I can! Cheers! :D

@Tipsy, hello there! Thank you for telling me about the link! I will consider setting up that PayPal account, but I don't think it's anytime soon. I hope your artist friend is doing much better now! Also, I'm happy that your mother has been cancer-free for so long. Hope that good streak continues! ;) Cheers, and thanks again!

@Zahra N Damayanti, hey there! Your ambition is amazing, do keep up the good work! You have my support in becoming a future oncologist. (: Thank you so much for your supportive and encouraging words, and also for keeping me in your prayers! I really appreciate them a lot. (': Sure we can be friends! I'm always up for new friendships. ;) I'll contact you as soon as possible! Meanwhile, I hope you're doing well! Cheers! :D

@Anonymous, I prefer to keep my Facebook account as private as possible. You can contact me through this email though: dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thank you so much, anyway!

@Emalina, hello there! I'm really sorry to hear about your father's passing. I hope you and your family are doing alright and staying strong. *hugs* Thank you so much for your willingness to help! Unfortunately, I'm under quarantine, so I don't think I can visit your school at the moment. I'll contact you really soon! Thanks again, Emalina!

@tanwenmin, hello there Wen Min! Yes, she has contacted me, if Jade and Jadeline are the same person we're talking about. (: I'm really grateful for the effort you, Jadeline and everyone else from your church who were involved in raising funds for me. My sincerest thanks from my family and I. (': Thanks for your comment too! :D

@YSL, thank you for your comment! Appreciated. (:

@Amelia, nope, it's not belated at all, no worries about that! (: I'll contact you as soon as possible! Thanks so much! :]

***I started typing out replies from 11.00 this morning, and it's already 8.00 at night. My eyes are getting blurry, and I hope I didn't accidentally miss anyone out! If I did, I'm truly sorry about it.

Cheers!

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Edits are going on in this cancer blog of mine. I have added another page, and it's mainly about my treatment course since the start of my cancer journey. I hope I didn't miss any important details, but it's certainly full of just that - details. To those of you who are new here, or would like to know of what I have been going through - more precise information is available here.

Cheers!

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It's not easy moderating so many comments. I wonder how famous bloggers handle their fans/haters' comments.

Hopefully, I didn't accidentally publish a comment that was not meant to be published; the people who wanted to be kept anonymous or posted their contact details.

There were one or two comments that had contact numbers. Even though it wasn't mentioned, but I didn't publish those either. I don't think they will appreciate prank calls or having their contact numbers exposed. From personal experience, I know I don't.

I think I will dedicate an entire blog entry to replying these comments.

Meanwhile, I will do my best to maintain this blogging spirit and update as often as possible about exactly what I had been through to those of you who frequently ask.

Also, I added a new page for this blog. If you look beneath my blog banner and next to the word 'Home', I dedicated my 'Inspiration' page to this amazing individual. Personally, I really hope that any one of you readers will take some time off to read about her. She's more amazing and tougher than me, and ever will be.

Cheers!

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I am not exaggerating, but my parents are draining their savings empty and spent pretty much every dollar, cent and dime just to fund for my treatments since July 2010.

It doesn't help that the current treatment I'm undergoing now, which is the stem cell transplant - is the most costly out of all of the medical procedures I've been through.

My parents are aware that I actually am desperate to start studying in college. So they still refuse to touch my college fund, unless it is the last final resort.

Friends, old and new...

This is a sincere plea for help from me,
on behalf of my immediate family members -
my parents and my elder brother.
We are really low on cash. I hate to have to ask for help, but seeing how tough it is for both my parents to pay for all those costly medical bills and my brother for being considerate to consider our spendings and tries to save as much as he can so he can relieve my parents of some burden. He's still studying in university, and the last thing I want to see that happens is my brother dropping out of his course just to help support me. I'm already robbed of my chance of an education, so why rob my brother of his?

At least, if I ever were to unfortunately die - my brother will have enough qualifications to find a better job and support my parents in the future.

At the very least, this is what everyone in my family deserves for taking such great care of me throughout my course of treatment. In fact, since I was born to be exact!

I was given a chance to live, yet it is not for me to choose how long I can live this life as my current identity. I have to say, I'm thankful for having the chance to be born as Leonie. Someone who isn't your typical ordinary person, yet still uniquely me - learning something new everyday and meeting new people; creating new experiences and memories for me.

I truly do not know how much longer my cancer journey is going to take. I don't know how many types of treatment I still have to face after this. I still have no idea how much longer I'm going to live.

Please spread the word around for me. If there is anything you need to know such as my bank account details, approximate cost of treatment, etc., feel free to inbox me through Facebook or leave me a comment on this blog. If you prefer to be kept anonymous, I will not publish your comment - but please leave me your email, contact number, Facebook profile or anything that will make it easier and convenient to discuss everything out.

You have my utmost, sincerest thanks.

Thank you for taking the time to read this entry, and thank you for spreading the word around.

I really hope to hear some good news soon. (':

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Hello readers! I'm in Malacca now as I'm typing this blog entry out.

Tomorrow, I will be going for my fifth chemo session. Two more chemo sessions, inclusive of tomorrow's, and hopefully, I'm done with chemotherapy for good.

I'm praying very hard that the side-effects from tomorrow's chemo won't be too bad. I intend to do some past year papers and revise History. Honestly, I know zilch in that subject. If you wonder how I could score alright for History exams, I rely on pretty accurate tips. Of course, it's always an E for me if the paper is set by the school. Haha!

Cheers to today's date, 10/10/10!

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This ad has been aired frequently on the Mediacorp channels. The one we see on TV isn't the full version. This video helped me to understand the whole idea of the ad better.

It's sad, really. I have to say, I love the song used for the ad though. It somehow gives me the picture of me in old age, sitting on a rocking chair and listening to this particular song on a gramophone. That's me, I don't know about you. My mother agrees with me, apparently.

Cheers!

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I cried badly the first time I watched this ad on TV. Just wanted to share this with my readers.

Cheers!

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Hello readers! Hope all is well for you and the people around you. (:

For the majority of you who have been asking me, "Are you okay?" - I'm doing alright. Same old same old, really!

But honestly, you can't expect me to answer, "No, I'm not okay. I'm in the depths of despair."

I'm going to get criticised as mean and ungrateful, but before that happens..

I understand that people ask me that to show that they care for me. They're concerned about my progress. How I'm coping up chemotherapy and being isolated from the outside world.

Which is why I'm ever so grateful to the person that founded the Internet. A genius, indeed.

I could have been completely isolated from the world, but I'm not! Thanks to the Internet!

I'm starting to sound very obnoxious. Apologies, readers.

My motivation to study for SPM and do fairly well in it is definitely not constant. One moment it's there, and the next, poof! Vanishes into thin air. I sense danger if this continues to go on.

Have you ever experienced the feeling of knowing you are capable of achieving something, but due to little effort and drive, you end up failing instead?

I feel it all the time. Especially now.

If I want to, I can score 10 A+'s for SPM 2010 for all I care. In fact, anybody is capable of doing so! I believe all of us are smart and clever. Nobody is stupid. It's only up to us if we want to efficiently put our brains to work.

It's very easy for me to type this down.

But why is it so hard for me to execute what I say?

Sigh. I really want to do well. I know I'm capable of doing well.

Why can't I just get started?

Motivate me, dear readers. Please, and my sincerest thank yous.

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Hello there, and I welcome all to this site of mine.

I'm inspired to start a cancer blog mainly because I wanted to document my experiences. But of course, the late Shin's blog plays a major part in me starting this blog as well. Bless her good soul.

I am aware there are many friends, acquantainces and strangers out there who are curious about my condition. Therefore, here is an outlet for all of you to learn and find out, the nice way. Why do I call this the nice way? Well, this is due to the fact that I'm actually opening this blog for all to read, without the invasion of my privacy. I thought it'll be better off to be nice and enlighten people about being a cancer patient. Of course, with the condition that my original sites be kept at a certain level of privacy.

This blog is also for other cancer patients or survivors to chance upon, and may we all be able to share our experiences of our battles in fighting various types of cancer. In my case, it's B-cell lymphoma.

Like I had mentioned, this blog shall be mostly about my experiences in being a cancer patient. Besides that, I will also be including the little life lessons that I had slowly picked up in this adventure of mine.

Feel free to leave comments about this blog, or you can just leave a tag. I will be more than happy to reply to all, be it nice words of encouragement or nasty comments trying to bring me down. I am generally very open to critique, so clear your doubts and go ahead.

Till the next post, cheers!

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Shin.1966 - 2009. "She lives forever in the hearts of those who knew her, and know of her."
I watched a documentary about her battle against cancer on Mediacorp's Channel 8 in 2008, back when I was still fifteen. I was really touched by her strong will and constant optimism despite her condition.

I found her blog and sent her an e-mail, expressing how wowed I am by her. All I wanted then was to tell her to keep up the good fight, and she was doing at good job at it; I learnt a lot about life in that one night through her documentary and blog entries than in my fifteen years of living life - complaining and whining when I was actually one lucky brat. I honestly didn't expect her to reply.

Guess what? She did.

I would like to share her reply to me with all of my readers. It also works as a reminder to me that I should keep up the good fight as well. I hope she doesn't mind, but I personally don't think she will; bless her good soul.

11th November 2008.

Leonie,

Thanks for your kind e-mail. It's taken me a while to respond because I only just saw it. I look at my Gmail account once every week or so. This Yahoo account is more reliable if you want to contact me.

I truly appreciate your words of praise and encouragement.

You say that you're a 15-year-old Malaysian student and that you're not good with words? You should know that your short note was more articulate, well-written, and intelligently expressed than most of the comments I've been getting - many of them, adult professionals.

I don't know what you plan on doing with your future, but with your gift of expression, I think you've got a bright future ahead of you, professionally. And more important, you seem to have a maturity and insight beyond your age. I'm betting that you go on do something great with your life - not in terms of money or fame, but something that will make a difference to the people and the community around you.

Thanks, and good luck to you.

Shin

*** Shin had really good foresight. Even if I personally don't think so, I guess my friends, acquaintances, and strangers who have got to know of my cancer journey will agree that I did manage to 'make a difference to the people and the community around me.'

Rest in peace, Shin. My only regret then was that I didn't get to reply your e-mail in time. Cancer took you away not long after, and this will always bug my conscience for being such a procrastinator.

But you have enlightened me in so many ways, and you continue to live in my heart as my inspiration to keep up the good fight.

Keep up the good fight. That should work well as a personal motto.

To my readers who want to know more of this amazing person, do visit her blog at http://shinscancerblog.blogspot.com and watch the documentary I watched by clicking on this link.

Thank you Shin. Thank you for making such a difference to my life.

©Photo of Shin belongs to her family members.

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Hello readers.

I have a lot to blog about actually.

But recent events are making me feel tired, emotionally.

I'll update when said events resolve.

For now, to those of you who wonder - I am doing alright for now. I'm recuperating at home, living every single day knowing it is a blessing that I am still living.

I hope my readers stay safe and happy.

Take care, and cheers.

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Hello readers! I'll be keeping this short for now.

First of all, I've completed all 27 fractions of radiotherapy. I'd a blood test done, and I'll only get to go for a PET scan three months later. As the effect of radiation is still there, going for a scan now will produce inaccurate results.

Three months. Anything can happen in three months.

I do worry. I do feel fear.

I guess there is nothing I can do but wait.

I'll try to update in detail soon.

Meanwhile, do look out for a special guest article by a Mr. David Haas very soon! I can assure you, this article will do a lot in enlightening you; it doesn't matter whether you are a cancer patient, cancer survivor, a family or friend of a cancer patient, or a healthy individual.

Cheers, and Happy 29th of February!

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Hello readers.

I feel obliged to apologise to everyone because I haven't been updating, but I think I'm not going to.

The pleasing disease needs to be cured. Or cancer won't.

All that everyone needs to know for now:

Cancer is back in my life once more.
I'll give the details later.

For now, I'll just like to spend some time with my family.

By the way, hope this new layout is well-received!

Cheers.

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Hello again, readers!

This entry is dedicated to everybody who left me tags in my Cbox. Unfortunately, I think some of them got deleted because there were too many words of encouragement and support(my sincerest thanks to everyone who left me a tag!), and at that time I didn't change my settings for my Cbox accountto keep more messages. I managed to retrieve most of them; those that I didn't manage to retrieve back, I really cannot reply you but I can only give you my thanks for your encouraging words and for some of you, suggestions of alternative treatments.

I'll be replying tags from the earliest to the most recent.

Here we go again!

***
@nn, thank you for believing in me! (':

@Pn. Wong, teacher, is that you? :D Thanks so much for dropping by! You take care too! (:

@ayasan, I will definitely try! Thanks!

@C, thanks! Will do! (:

@xx, easier said than done, but will definitely try! Thank you! (:

@guest, thank you! (:

@Edwin, hello there! Thank you so much for your concern, but for now, I have no intentions of setting up a PayPal account. I have my reasons, and this wil be further explained in a separate blog post. I certainly am grateful and glad that there are so many Samaritans out there willing to help me out though!

@uga..., thank you for the love! And I do appreciate the fact that people are keeping me in their prayers! (:

@guest, haha, I doubt that everyone loves me, but I do know that there are people who do! Thanks!

@hope, no pun intended, but I hope so too! Thanks!

@Unwritten, thanks! I hope that everything will be okay, eventually. (:

@candice, nice of you to drop by! And thanks! (:

@hong, hey there! Thank you so much for your tag! Well, I was too tired from my stem cell transplant and the side effects were wearing me out months afterwards to even go online, hence the lack of updates. I've been trying to update as often as possible now. Thanks for checking often!

@way, awwww, thanks! (:

@vivian, hello there! I do apologise for the super late reply. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, I do hope you're on the road to recovery! Sure we can be friends! Feel free to e-mail me here: dancingpapercranes@live.com

Hope to hear from you soon, Vivian! (:

@ex-junior, hi there! Thanks for your well-wishes! (:

@iqa, awwww, thank you! I'm glad that my story could broaden your perspectives. Will do! (:

@LJ, that's really nice to know! Thank you!

@JW, thank you so much! You too!

@~Si3wLiNg~, when I was still undergoing the transplant, I'd been advised by my doctor to not dabble with alternative treatments, because it could bring more harm to my health if the effects from both treatments were to clash. If you would really like to let me know more about energy healing, you could send me an e-mail to dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thanks!

@Nikisa Izas, thank you! (:

@Believer, wow, I'm really flattered! Thank you so much for your compliment and the well-wishes! :D

@kalis, awwwww! Thanks! (':

@h, I don't really understand your tag, but thanks for dropping by anyway!

@Zettiey, hi there! No, I never tried alternative treatments before because I'd been advised by my doctor to not involve myself with alternative treatments. The results of alternative treatments vary among patients - it could be harmful, it could cure one of cancer. Meanwhile, I'm not going to take any risks. Thanks for the well-wishes, though! (:

@Hope, I'm glad to hear that! Thanks! (:

@Lynette, thanks so much! :]

@ugashni, thanks for the love! (:

@Somebody, thanks for keeping me in your prayers! (:

@Arynna, will do! Thank you! (:

@X, awwww, thank you so much! :]

@charmaine, my doctor is a very knowledgeable haematologist too, and I trust him in treating me. Thanks for the info anyway! (:

@AAA, appreciating the love from across the Causeway! Thank you! (:

@blogwalker, thank you! I think I'm doing alright at the moment. I really hope that I'm well on the road to recovery! (:

@Alvin Lee, hey! I saw your Facebook message, but haven't got to replying you yet. Do bear with me, and sorry about that! (:

@Anonymous, thank you!

@stranger, thank you for the compliment! (':

@roslinda, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! I'm really sorry to hear about your niece's condition though. I hope she's doing well and is recovering!

@AnotherOne, that's really nice to know! Thank you so much! (:

@cha, I won't give up that easily. Thanks! (:

@kit, definitely! ;)

@fran, thank you so much for the compliments! I'm glad that my story helped you realised how lucky you are. Cheers! (:

@Dorothea, hey! No way would I just regard you as just another stranger! That would be disrespecting you and everyone else that had commented even though I don't personally know them in real life. Thank you so much for your tag and for keeping me in your prayers, I really appreciate that a lot! (':

@Mika, nice to know! Thanks! (:

@Sheree, well, I'm sure all of us have our complaints about life. It's just about who's more fortunate and who isn't. What life throws to us, we have to face instead of running away. Anyway, thank you so much for everything! :'D

@leonie g, hello there, reader of the same name! Thank you so much for the well-wishes and the compliments! Super appreciated. (':

@mizah, I will. (:

@angie, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! And there's no need to be ashamed for whining about your life. We all do, actually. It's what makes us human. (:

@paula, thank you for the prayers! (:

@HI, awwww, thank you! (':

@Ashley, thank you so much Ashley! I really appreciate your tag. :D

@c, thank you! (:

@Jasmine, thanks for the well-wishes! (:

@ur junior, you don't need to hope. I will stay strong. (:

@nadya, will do! Thank you!

@zah, thanks! Will do!

@ins, thank you! (:

@BK, thank you so much for the well-wishes and for dropping by my blog! I really appreciate it a lot. (:

@Carmen, ah, thank you so much! :'D

@Hanne, thank you! (:

@destiny, thanks!

@Clara, thank you for the compliment! I'm glad to know that I inspire people. It's the least I could do. (:

@nick, thank you! (:

@Vanessa,, hi there! Thank you so much for your compliments! They really do make me feel better about myself. (':

@Grant, I won't! (:

@c, thank you so much for leaving so many tags. (:

@Gail, really nice to know! Thanks! :D

@yishien, thank you!

@Jane, thank you! Much appreciated. (:

@ShazrolAzly, thank you so much! I really appreciate that! (:

@Jen, my thanks to you too! Yes, I'll keep that in mind. (:

@jy, will do! Thanks! (:

@krystie, thank you so much for your support! :'D

@mic, thanks! (:

@cheering you on, thank you! That's really nice to know! :D

@Alvina, thank you for keeping me in your prayers! Really appreciate that a lot! (':

@anon, thank you!

@asd, I'm so sorry for the late reply! Thank you so much for wanting to help me out though! (:

@Ash, awwwww, thank you! (':

@Yu Hong, thank you! (:

@hellosunshine, thank you for your tag! :]

@YSL, thank you! (:

@suzane, you're right on that one! Thank you so much! :]

@MH, thanks for the info! (:

@ashley, thank you! (:

@evelyn, hello there! Thank you so much for wanting to help me out! Financially, I'm currently quite alright for now. But if there's anything, I'll definitely send you an e-mail. Thanks once again! (':

@Inti-an, thank you! :D

@addin syah, glad to know my story inspires you! ;)

***I'll give another proper update soon, I hope!

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All responses here are to those who had commented on my blog post titled 'here comes the hardest part.' I will contact those who didn't want their comments to be published through e-mail as soon as possible.

Generally, those that had asked me to give my bank account/contact details to them through e-mail will be contacted again through e-mail as well. Since I'm done with my transplant and things have settled down a tiny bit financially compared to then, I think it's only polite for me to say thank you for the kind thought; I never replied to them immediately due to my going through the tedious treatment process and feeling utterly too tired to even go online. They wanted to help, but I didn't give them the necessary information. Hope this clears up some misunderstandings out there!

I'll be replying from the earliest comments to the most recent.

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@jorene pu, thanks! (:

@fyah, thanks for the well wishes! It's perfectly fine that you couldn't help me financially, it's the thought that really counts. (:

@Sylvi, I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Shar Linn, I sincerely appreciate your comment, it's truly full of wise words. It's really great to know, and I don't feel that bad about myself being 'weak' once in awhile anymore. Thank you so much for the support and encouragement, it's much appreciated and needed while I try to kick cancer in the ass. (': I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! Thank you so much again, Shar Linn! Cheers! :D

@Naziha, thanks so much! Really appreciated. (:

@nityakumar, thank you so much! I shall try to contact you soon. (:

@Carinn, I think I thanked you and the rest in Sunway College JB so often now, I'm starting to think that I'm nagging at you lot. Heh. And I don't mean to make your mum or anyone cry reading about my predicament! Oh gosh. D: But I'm truly touched at what you, your family and our friends have been doing to help me out. Thank you so much Rinn. (': <3

@Michael, will be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Paul Low, thank you for the comment Paul! Cheers! (:

@Cikgu Adilah, cikgu!! Thank you so much! *hugs!* (':

@fashu, thanks Fashu! <3 (:

@Jean Chu, thank you for keeping my family and I in your prayers! Will send you an e-mail really soon! (:

@xox `Lyng` xox, thank you so much! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@CYJ, I'm glad to know that my story inspired you and your roommate. Thank you both for your help, but I won't post my bank account details nor my Facebook profile in my cancer blog. I find it too public. You didn't leave me your contact details either, so I can't get back to you personally at the moment. If you're reading this and still want to contact me, please e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! Thank you once more, and please send my thanks to your roommate as well! Cheers! :D

@Komol, hello there! Will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@Anonymous, my family and I have our reasons to not publish about my condition in the papers. This will be explained in a future blog post. Anyway, thank you!

@st, will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@qi, thank you so much! (:

@David Teoh, hey David! I'm really grateful for the help that you and the rest of the peeps in Taylor's had done for me. I know all of you had done your best in trying to help me out, but because of certain situations, all of you couldn't do more for me. I'll explain in my blog as soon as possible why. Meanwhile, thank you so much for everything! Please send my sincerest thanks to the rest as well. Cheers! (:

@Anonymous, I'm sorry to hear about your uncle having cancer too. I'm glad to hear that he can get a suitable bone marrow though! (: Hope his condition has stabilised and he's doing much better now. Will send you an e-mail soon!

@Rebecca Koo, hey girl! I'm so sorry for the late reply concerning this matter. I am still grateful for all you and the rest had done for me. (': Aren't we friends now, by the way? ;) Haha. When I'm free from cancer and all, maybe we can meet up with Jia Ying and a few other mutual friends and we can get to know each other better. (: Thank you for keeping me in your prayers! :'D

@Anonymous, thank you so much! Will contact you through e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@pangzter, I'm so sorry for the late reply! Funds-wise, I think it's alright for now. (: But at the moment, you can help by being a friend to me! I'm open to new friendships at this point in life. It helps me widen my social circle even though I'm stuck at home because I have to be quarantined. Anyway, thank you so much for leaving a comment! :]

@Lee Yue, I didn't notice any typo errors! But it's okay, no worries at all! (: Thank you so much, but I think it's alright for now. Cheers, and hope you're doing well!

@StereoHearts, thank you so much! It's nice to know that I have constant support from people like yourself. (: You didn't leave me your contact details, so I can't do so. But thank you anyway! :]

@Christinaa!, Chrissie dear! I'll contact you really, really soon, okay! (:

@zahrah, awwwwwww! Thanks so much, Zahrah! :'D Glad to know that I inspired you, in some way or another. Will contact you as soon as possible! (:

@Anonymous, will be sending you an e-mail really soon!

@Rin, hello there! Nah, don't worry! I don't think that way at all. It's just that at that time, I was already under treatment(stem cell transplant), and I don't want to meddle with alternative treatments while I'm undergoing the transplant. Thanks for the information and the encouragement though! It's really appreciated. (: I'll definitely do my research about this. Meanwhile, I hope your sister is responding well to this treatment! Cheers, and take care! :D

@maurice!~!@, man! Thanks so much for dropping by! :'D

@~MY~, will be sending you an e-mail soon! (:

@Alyssa, alright! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@Anonymous, thank you for the information! Will definitely look it up.

@Anonymous, awwwww! I'm glad that you defeated cancer! I'm really happy for you! :D You're right, cancer isn't all that bad as it had helped me learn so much about life and how I shouldn't take things for granted. It's high time that cancer should be leaving my life now! Hahah. You being in my predicament before will definitely understand the trials and tribulations of being a cancer patient. Thanks for leaving a comment and telling me about your story, it's really appreciated! Hope to hear from you more if you see this reply! Cheers, and take care! ;)

@QiTing Darling, hey there! Will be contacting you through e-mail/Facebook shortly! I have yet to thank you, Ah Yuan, and the rest of your family properly. Hope all of you can remain patient with me! (:

@Anonymous, wow. You never knew people like me existed unless they're from the newspapers or storybooks? I hope that with my story, it managed to widen your horizons about people like me really existing and aren't merely fictional people/strangers. Will be contacting you really soon! And thanks! It's nice to know that I'm an inspiration to you. (:

@Anonymous, hi there! My email is dancingpapercranes@live.com, but I won't be on MSN using this account. Cheers!

@Shen Ni, thank you so much! I definitely will do my best to stay strong and keep fighting. Will be sending you an e-mail soon! You take care too. (:

@Angie, hello Angeline! I'm really sorry to hear about your uncle's passing. I'm sure he fought the good fight well. May he rest in peace. I will continue this battle of mine too. Thank you so much for leaving a comment.

@Bing, thank you! (:

@Nicolette, hey! In fact, I do know who you are! Sherylee's sister, right? (: Thank you so much for keeping my family and me in your prayers. Also, thanks so much for your comment, it does mean a lot to me. (': Cheers!

@ashL?y~*, you can e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! And thank you! (:

@ss tan, will be e-mailing you soon!

@nicoleeeee :), I didn't do much for you actually, Nic! But it's the least I can do, since I couldn't offer anything other than emotional support to you then. I really appreciate you and the rest being there for me, you guys mean so much to me as well. (': <3

@sam, will be sending you an e-mail soon!

@Anonymous, I did consider setting up a PayPal account, but things were so hectic back then, and I wasn't up to it physically to doing anything online. This PayPal matter will be brought up in a separate blog entry. Anyway, thanks!

@vanessa, hi! Yes, I do know Nicole and Chiara. (: Financially, I think it's alright for now. So sorry for the late reply! But I do appreciate your wanting to help me out. Thank you so much! :'D

@suelynn, so I heard! I really appreciate that JJ and Kay Kay helped spread the news of my situation, thank to my friends who tweeted them about me. (: Thank you so much, Sue Lynn! I'll be sending you an e-mail as soon as possible. :D

@Weng Hui, hello there! Thank you so much for your comment! (': Will send you an e-mail very soon!

@JieWeN, hello there! Thank you for your encouraging comment. Sorry to hear about your spine problem though, hope it's on its way to getting better. (: I'm happy for you staying strong and striving for the best despite your problem and pains.Your brother is right though - please do not overexert yourself, for it may affect your health even more. Do take care of your health, and cheers!

@Janny1120, thank you so much! Will be dropping you an e-mail soon! (:

@Shawn, hello there! I will contact you through Facebook soon. But just to let everyone know - I am under this haematologist in Kuala Lumpur now. Still, I'll contact you just to let you know that I got your comment. Cheers!

@xiaocass, thank you very much! Glad that my story has touched you somehow. (': Will contact you through e-mail soon!

@mable, will e-mail you soon! And thank you! (:

@Wil Sern, you didn't leave me your contact details, so I'm afraid I can't contact you. Thank you for wanting to help me out though! (:

@Kimberly, oh gosh, I read through your comment again, and I just realised I wasn't supposed to publish it. I'm so sorry! D: Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers though, I really appreciate the thought a lot. (: And your comment did bring some cheer to me! ;)

@Maureen, no problem at all! I don't expect everyone who know about my condition to contribute. It's the thought that counts, in the end. Thank you for the support! (:

@Sharm, hello there! Thank you for the well wishes and for reading my entries! Your Facebook link has expired, but I think I found your Twitter account. Will contact you soon! (:

@Samantha, hey there! You didn't leave me your contact details, and your Blogger profile link has expired; I can't contact you at the moment. Thank you so much for your wanting to help, though! (:

@Menny aka Carmen, thank you so much for your comment and for keeping me in your prayers! I'll be contacting you through e-mail really soon! (:

@Anonymous, I'll be e-mailing you soon! Thank you for your comment! (:

@Jon, I'll contact you as soon as possible. Thanks!

@sylerhkan, thank you so much for your comment! And don't worry, I don't mind the language at all. Some people may find it vulgar, but it's fine for me. In fact, as vulgar as vulgarities are - sometimes I find them appropriate to describe certain situations in ways that normal words couldn't. Your comment did make me smile, by the way! Thanks once again! :D

@Ju Chin, hey! I'll contact you through Facebook soon. And thanks! (:

@Benetoon aka Bene Chian, I'm really sorry for the late reply! I haven't been online till recently due to me recuperating from my stem cell transplant. I did the transplant at a hospital in KL. Thank you for your concern, but I think it's alright for the time being. :] Cheers!

@SK, I'm really sorry to hear about your mum. Being someone who has a kin/family member that went through blood cancer, I'm sure you understand my predicament, and especially what my family members are going through. Thank you so much for your willingness to help and your encouragement! Hope you're doing well.

@huiyin-denoisemaker, I know I'm blessed because there are a lot of friends and nice people out there who are willing to help me out. (: I'm glad to know that I can be of inspiration to you and the rest! Thank you for your comment and for keeping me in your prayers, I really appreciate it a lot. Hope you're doing fine! Cheers! :D

@Sean, hey Sean! I saw your Facebook message, but I haven't got to replying it yet. I'll reply you there really soon, and thank you so much for the well wishes! (:

@ierawkxz, hello there! It's okay, it's the thought that counts! Thank you for praying for me, and thank you for offering to hear me out when I need someone to talk to. I really appreciate that a lot, since friends are really a huge factor in me staying strong to beat cancer. (: I'll e-mail you very soon! ;)

@Shermaine, hello there! Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! I really appreciate that a lot! (': Cheers!

@Anonymous, hello there! I'm pretty stubborn, and I love to learn, so I really would like to continue my studies, given the chance. (: Thank you so much, and I'll be dropping you an e-mail as soon as possible! ;)

@eexuan, will be contacting you very soon! Thank you so much, by the way! (:

@e for ecstasy, I don't have a PayPal account at the moment, but thank you so much for your willingness to help. And thanks for the link as well! I'm sorry to hear about his passing, but I'm sure he fought hard to the very end. Will take some time out to read his entries. Once again, thanks! (:

@Anonymous, yes it is, actually! My treatment has ended for now, and hopefully that's the end of everything! Thank you so much for wanting to help. (:

@janicechian, Janice! I'll contact you through Facebook really soon! Have yet to thank you and Joanne properly. (':'

@Andrea, hello there! Firstly, thank you so much for your encouraging words! (': And also for keeping me in your prayers. As deadly and sucky as cancer is, it's nice to know that I have made many new friends because of this, widening my perspectives in life and getting to know more people from different walks of life. I'll be sending you an e-mail really soon, do keep a lookout for it! Cheers! (:

@meowth aka aileen, thank you so much! Will e-mail you soon!

@ankakashi, I miss you and your flowers. Sigh. (': You're such a dear, Anna-chan. Glad that my blog managed to help you and your mum reconcile, though I doubt that the argument would have lasted long anyway. ;) Can't wait to give you more kitty smiles in person! :P

@missroum87 aka grace, you can contact me at dancingpapercranes@live.com! I can't access to the Facebook link you'd provided though, so I'll try to contact you through your blog instead. Cheers!

@Nessa aka Nadia, hello there! (: Thank you so much for leaving a comment on my blog and for your willingness to help! I'll be sending you an e-mail soon! ;)

@xiao, I don't have a PayPal account, unfortunately. But thank you so much for wanting to help me out! (:

@Anonymous, I live in Johor, Malaysia.

@Anonymous, thank you so much! Yes, I am aware of that, so I definitely won't give up easily. (':

@linz, will be sending you an e-mail soon!

@amalina, thank you so much! Yes, I'll continue to stay strong. (:

@Jane Teh, thank you so much for leaving a comment on my blog! I really appreciate the supportive words. (': Will be contacting you really soon!

@Anonymous, thank you so much! (:

@Adiba, thank you so much! I'll contact you through e-mail really soon! :]

@Anonymous, thank you so much for your wanting to help me, but I do not have a PayPal account and I don't think I'll be opening one anytime soon. I'll explain more in another blog entry. But thanks!

@Stefanie, thanks! Will be sending you an e-mail really soon! (:

@rådicål 'dreámer, I'll still thank you, because it's good manners, it's appropriate and it's the least I can do. Thanks Daniel. (':

@Mcguyver99 aka Andrew, you didn't leave me any contact details, I'll try to contact you through your blogs. Anyway, thanks!

@Anonymous, thanks! Will send you an e-mail soon! (:

@Chuah Siew Lin™, hello there! Thank you so much! I'll definitely stay strong. (:

@Angela, so sorry for the late reply! But thank you so much in putting your effort into making a video for me. I'm still very touched by the video and your gesture. (':

@Anonymous, thank you for the information! Will go and check it out when I can.

@Bro Punna, hello Uncle Punna! Thank you for your well wishes. I'll try to contact you as soon as possible. (:

@Daeng Hanisah A Malek, hey Daeng! Of course I still remember you! (: Thank you so much! I'll try to contact you through Facebook. :]

@Anonymous, will send an e-mail to you soon!

@Anonymous, thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers! Will send an e-mail to you soon!

@Mel Koay, thank you so much for your kind words! I'll send you an e-mail as soon as possible! Cheers! (:

@Kuah Jenhan, will be sending you an e-mail soon! I'm alright with comedy, and thank you so much for the offer! When I've fully recovered and I'm no longer under quarantine, I'll try to make it to watch one of your shows! (: Cheers!

@Anonymous, hello there! Thanks so much! Glad you got your transplant over and done with. Will be contacting you really soon! (:

@Nadya Liew, hey there! I'm really sorry I couldn't reply earlier, I had complications shortly after doing my transplant. Took me some time to recuperate properly. Thank you so much, and to your parents as well! I really appreciate the kind gesture a lot. (:

@elena, thank you so much for the information, Elena! Will be contacting you as soon as possible! (:

@Wan Ting, thank you so much for your well wishes! Will be contacting you through e-mail soon! (:

@Shastri, will be sending you an e-mail soon! And thank you! (:

@Pj, thank you so much for your comment! I'll contact you through e-mail soon. (:

@Elton, thanks so much! Will contact you really soon! (:

@Anonymous, thank you for wanting to help me out! I'll contact you through e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@qqq, yes, I was botak(bald). Not many people can say that they went bald twice throughout their whole lives. You try going bald, and see whether you actually can have the heart to type that comment out to me. (:

@Anonymous, hello Mr. Lim!! I'm so sorry for the late reply! I'll e-mail you really soon okay! Hope you're doing fine! :D

@§pinzer, will do! (:

@Nick, thank you so much for your comment! I've read some of the entries in your blog, and your comment makes a lot of sense. I'll try to personally contact you as soon as possible. Meanwhile, I'm glad you're doing well! Hope your health is improving day by day! (:

@Su Ann, thank you! I won't. (:

@Paul Tan, I'm so sorry for the late reply! I still will contact you soon though. Cheers!

@Vun, hello there! It's not that I didn't want to be specific, it's mainly because I still want to keep some of my social networking site links private and open only to my close friends and acquaintances. I have recently created a new e-mail account specially for my cancer blog, so maybe if you have any queries you can contact me here: dancingpapercranes.live.com. Anyway, thank you for dropping a comment and for wanting to help me out!

@forenseeks, I'm sorry to hear that your uncle has cancer too. I hope he is recovering well, and even better - already fully recovered! Thank you for the information and for keeping me in your prayers, as well. Cheers! (:

@Ken, will send you an e-mail soon!

@xq ♥, hey! Thank you so much! Will contact you soon! (:

@*MysL*, hey Mich! You didn't leave me your contact details, so I don't think I can contact you. :( I don't have a PayPal account though. Anyway, thank you so much for helping me out! I really appreciate the effort. (':

@Cheyenne, will send you an e-mail as soon as possible! Thank you, dear! (:

@Anonymous aka C from Singapore, it's perfectly fine if you can't contribute financially, it's the thought that counts. I really appreciate that a lot. (': Also, thank you so much for your kind comment and for keeping me in your prayers! :'D Cheers!

@hongs, hey! Thank you so much for everything you had done. (: You didn't leave me any contact details, so I really have no idea how to get back to you. D: Hopefully, if you see this reply, and if you still want to contact me, feel free to e-mail me at dancingpapercranes@live.com. Cheers!

@Anonymous, I assume that you are C from Singapore. Thanks! (:

@ℓσgєи αυτhøɾ вєαstlч, will be contacting you really soon! Thank you!

@Missy Sasha N Mini Myra, hello there! Sure I don't mind, you were only trying to help me. (: Besides, I think letting people know about my story can inspire them in one way or another. :] I'll contact you through e-mail really soon! Thank you so much for everything! :D

@Nana, hi there junior! Thanks to you and your friends for wanting to help me out! You didn't leave me your contacts, so I can't get back to you. Still, my sincerest thanks! (:

@Roberto, thank you so much Roberto! (': I'll keep fighting the good fight, no worries there. (:

@S, thank you so much! I'll contact you as soon as possible. (:

@Ccy, it's dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thank you so much for being understanding of my situation. I'll be sending you an e-mail as soon as possible! (:

@Jaynier, I don't have a Maybank account. Sorry!

@Cherly Sim, yes, I'm Malaysian. Oh really? Thanks for the information! You didn't leave me your contacts, so I'm afraid I can't contact you personally. I hope you see this reply, late as it is! And I'm sorry about that. D:

@LadyMichelle, hello there! I'm really sorry for the late reply! D: Thank you so much for wanting to raise funds for me through your school's Interact Club. I already completed my transplant, and I hope that's the end of it! And thanks for the compliment! (:

@Natsu30, hey there! Thank you for your comment! I hope your friend is currently doing well. (: Cheers!

@soowei, thank you so much for the comment! Really appreciated! (:

@shuhui, hey there! I'll contact you really soon! Thank you so much! (:

@Anonymous, thank you! I'll send you an e-mail soon!

@Keshu, awwwww! Thank you so much, Keshu! (': Your comment means a lot to me. :'D I'm so sorry for the late reply though, I'll message you on Facebook as soon as possible. Thanks for putting in so much effort to help me out, I really appreciate that. (: You take care too!

@aishah mokhtar, I have yet to thank you and your friends properly. You and the rest did so much for me, I'm still speechless whenever I think of it. (': Will personally contact you as soon as possible. :'D

@Christine, hello there! Thank you and to your friends for wanting to help me out. (: You didn't leave me any contact details, so I'm sorry I can't get back to you. But anyway, my sincerest thanks! (':

@Dennis Lau, hello Dennis! Thank you for your comment. I will definitely check out the link you had given me. I'm glad to hear that their conditions are under control. (: I'll contact you through e-mail very soon, and thanks once again! :D

@Unknown aka Willy, congratulations for being a cancer survivor. I'm really happy for you. (: I admire my family members too, it hasn't been easy for any of them either. I'll contact you very soon, thank you so much for your comment! :]

@Jinz and Chris, thank you both so much! I'll send an e-mail really soon. (:

@milkway, hello there. I'm really sorry to hear that both your mother and brother are diagnosed with cancer as well. It must be tough on you, and on them as well. I understand that you can't help me financially, it's perfectly fine, really! It's the thought that matters the most. ;) Anyway, I wish you all the best, and I hope their conditions have improved, or better yet, they have already fully recovered from their cancers. (:

@tcs.thecross aka Chee Seng, thank you so much for your comment! I'm glad too for the encouraging words that many have been sending in, they do mean a lot to me while I keep on fighting the good fight. (: Thank you for the prayer, and thank you for doing so much for me! I wish I could contact you personally, but I don't see any contact details provided. Anyway, I hope you see this, because I just want to let you know how thankful I am for the help. (': Cheers!

@Su, thank you so much! I shall contact you through e-mail soon! (:

@Alvin Lee, will do! (:

@musings of a recluse aka Janet, hello there! Thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers as well as for the well wishes! I really appreciate them a lot. (': I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, I hope he's doing much better now! I think if you do regular check-ups and keep healthy, you should be quite alright. (: I'll try to contact you when I can! Cheers! :D

@Tipsy, hello there! Thank you for telling me about the link! I will consider setting up that PayPal account, but I don't think it's anytime soon. I hope your artist friend is doing much better now! Also, I'm happy that your mother has been cancer-free for so long. Hope that good streak continues! ;) Cheers, and thanks again!

@Zahra N Damayanti, hey there! Your ambition is amazing, do keep up the good work! You have my support in becoming a future oncologist. (: Thank you so much for your supportive and encouraging words, and also for keeping me in your prayers! I really appreciate them a lot. (': Sure we can be friends! I'm always up for new friendships. ;) I'll contact you as soon as possible! Meanwhile, I hope you're doing well! Cheers! :D

@Anonymous, I prefer to keep my Facebook account as private as possible. You can contact me through this email though: dancingpapercranes@live.com. Thank you so much, anyway!

@Emalina, hello there! I'm really sorry to hear about your father's passing. I hope you and your family are doing alright and staying strong. *hugs* Thank you so much for your willingness to help! Unfortunately, I'm under quarantine, so I don't think I can visit your school at the moment. I'll contact you really soon! Thanks again, Emalina!

@tanwenmin, hello there Wen Min! Yes, she has contacted me, if Jade and Jadeline are the same person we're talking about. (: I'm really grateful for the effort you, Jadeline and everyone else from your church who were involved in raising funds for me. My sincerest thanks from my family and I. (': Thanks for your comment too! :D

@YSL, thank you for your comment! Appreciated. (:

@Amelia, nope, it's not belated at all, no worries about that! (: I'll contact you as soon as possible! Thanks so much! :]

***I started typing out replies from 11.00 this morning, and it's already 8.00 at night. My eyes are getting blurry, and I hope I didn't accidentally miss anyone out! If I did, I'm truly sorry about it.

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Edits are going on in this cancer blog of mine. I have added another page, and it's mainly about my treatment course since the start of my cancer journey. I hope I didn't miss any important details, but it's certainly full of just that - details. To those of you who are new here, or would like to know of what I have been going through - more precise information is available here.

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It's not easy moderating so many comments. I wonder how famous bloggers handle their fans/haters' comments.

Hopefully, I didn't accidentally publish a comment that was not meant to be published; the people who wanted to be kept anonymous or posted their contact details.

There were one or two comments that had contact numbers. Even though it wasn't mentioned, but I didn't publish those either. I don't think they will appreciate prank calls or having their contact numbers exposed. From personal experience, I know I don't.

I think I will dedicate an entire blog entry to replying these comments.

Meanwhile, I will do my best to maintain this blogging spirit and update as often as possible about exactly what I had been through to those of you who frequently ask.

Also, I added a new page for this blog. If you look beneath my blog banner and next to the word 'Home', I dedicated my 'Inspiration' page to this amazing individual. Personally, I really hope that any one of you readers will take some time off to read about her. She's more amazing and tougher than me, and ever will be.

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I am not exaggerating, but my parents are draining their savings empty and spent pretty much every dollar, cent and dime just to fund for my treatments since July 2010.

It doesn't help that the current treatment I'm undergoing now, which is the stem cell transplant - is the most costly out of all of the medical procedures I've been through.

My parents are aware that I actually am desperate to start studying in college. So they still refuse to touch my college fund, unless it is the last final resort.

Friends, old and new...

This is a sincere plea for help from me,
on behalf of my immediate family members -
my parents and my elder brother.
We are really low on cash. I hate to have to ask for help, but seeing how tough it is for both my parents to pay for all those costly medical bills and my brother for being considerate to consider our spendings and tries to save as much as he can so he can relieve my parents of some burden. He's still studying in university, and the last thing I want to see that happens is my brother dropping out of his course just to help support me. I'm already robbed of my chance of an education, so why rob my brother of his?

At least, if I ever were to unfortunately die - my brother will have enough qualifications to find a better job and support my parents in the future.

At the very least, this is what everyone in my family deserves for taking such great care of me throughout my course of treatment. In fact, since I was born to be exact!

I was given a chance to live, yet it is not for me to choose how long I can live this life as my current identity. I have to say, I'm thankful for having the chance to be born as Leonie. Someone who isn't your typical ordinary person, yet still uniquely me - learning something new everyday and meeting new people; creating new experiences and memories for me.

I truly do not know how much longer my cancer journey is going to take. I don't know how many types of treatment I still have to face after this. I still have no idea how much longer I'm going to live.

Please spread the word around for me. If there is anything you need to know such as my bank account details, approximate cost of treatment, etc., feel free to inbox me through Facebook or leave me a comment on this blog. If you prefer to be kept anonymous, I will not publish your comment - but please leave me your email, contact number, Facebook profile or anything that will make it easier and convenient to discuss everything out.

You have my utmost, sincerest thanks.

Thank you for taking the time to read this entry, and thank you for spreading the word around.

I really hope to hear some good news soon. (':

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Hello readers! I'm in Malacca now as I'm typing this blog entry out.

Tomorrow, I will be going for my fifth chemo session. Two more chemo sessions, inclusive of tomorrow's, and hopefully, I'm done with chemotherapy for good.

I'm praying very hard that the side-effects from tomorrow's chemo won't be too bad. I intend to do some past year papers and revise History. Honestly, I know zilch in that subject. If you wonder how I could score alright for History exams, I rely on pretty accurate tips. Of course, it's always an E for me if the paper is set by the school. Haha!

Cheers to today's date, 10/10/10!

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This ad has been aired frequently on the Mediacorp channels. The one we see on TV isn't the full version. This video helped me to understand the whole idea of the ad better.

It's sad, really. I have to say, I love the song used for the ad though. It somehow gives me the picture of me in old age, sitting on a rocking chair and listening to this particular song on a gramophone. That's me, I don't know about you. My mother agrees with me, apparently.

Cheers!

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I cried badly the first time I watched this ad on TV. Just wanted to share this with my readers.

Cheers!

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Hello readers! Hope all is well for you and the people around you. (:

For the majority of you who have been asking me, "Are you okay?" - I'm doing alright. Same old same old, really!

But honestly, you can't expect me to answer, "No, I'm not okay. I'm in the depths of despair."

I'm going to get criticised as mean and ungrateful, but before that happens..

I understand that people ask me that to show that they care for me. They're concerned about my progress. How I'm coping up chemotherapy and being isolated from the outside world.

Which is why I'm ever so grateful to the person that founded the Internet. A genius, indeed.

I could have been completely isolated from the world, but I'm not! Thanks to the Internet!

I'm starting to sound very obnoxious. Apologies, readers.

My motivation to study for SPM and do fairly well in it is definitely not constant. One moment it's there, and the next, poof! Vanishes into thin air. I sense danger if this continues to go on.

Have you ever experienced the feeling of knowing you are capable of achieving something, but due to little effort and drive, you end up failing instead?

I feel it all the time. Especially now.

If I want to, I can score 10 A+'s for SPM 2010 for all I care. In fact, anybody is capable of doing so! I believe all of us are smart and clever. Nobody is stupid. It's only up to us if we want to efficiently put our brains to work.

It's very easy for me to type this down.

But why is it so hard for me to execute what I say?

Sigh. I really want to do well. I know I'm capable of doing well.

Why can't I just get started?

Motivate me, dear readers. Please, and my sincerest thank yous.

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Hello there, and I welcome all to this site of mine.

I'm inspired to start a cancer blog mainly because I wanted to document my experiences. But of course, the late Shin's blog plays a major part in me starting this blog as well. Bless her good soul.

I am aware there are many friends, acquantainces and strangers out there who are curious about my condition. Therefore, here is an outlet for all of you to learn and find out, the nice way. Why do I call this the nice way? Well, this is due to the fact that I'm actually opening this blog for all to read, without the invasion of my privacy. I thought it'll be better off to be nice and enlighten people about being a cancer patient. Of course, with the condition that my original sites be kept at a certain level of privacy.

This blog is also for other cancer patients or survivors to chance upon, and may we all be able to share our experiences of our battles in fighting various types of cancer. In my case, it's B-cell lymphoma.

Like I had mentioned, this blog shall be mostly about my experiences in being a cancer patient. Besides that, I will also be including the little life lessons that I had slowly picked up in this adventure of mine.

Feel free to leave comments about this blog, or you can just leave a tag. I will be more than happy to reply to all, be it nice words of encouragement or nasty comments trying to bring me down. I am generally very open to critique, so clear your doubts and go ahead.

Till the next post, cheers!

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