I was officially diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin's Mediastinal Large B-cell Lymphoma in July 2010. I was seventeen. I was in Form 5; my last year of secondary school, preparing to sit for the SPM examinations.

I would consider myself an average teenager - a girl who just wanted to have fun, with her quirks; trying to survive life as a teen.

It all started with me coughing non-stop after a bout of the common flu. Despite making several trips to my family doctor's clinic, the cough just won't seem to go away even after months of being under medication. Several prescriptions of cough drops later, my family doctor suggested to my parents and I to have a chest X-ray done for me.

A large tumour was discovered; situated in between my lungs, right in front of my heart. The tumour was pressing against my trachea, causing me to have slight breathing difficulties and all that coughing.

I stopped going to school almost immediately. My parents and I went on this journey to seek advice from specialists regarding my condition.

Next, I had a needle biopsy done which confirmed that the tumour consisted of active cancer cells. I had to go for a surgical biopsy to classify what kind of cells were they, so the proper treatment could be administered right away.

The cancer had then spread to my pancreas, kidneys and liver.

Afterwards, I went through six cycles of chemotherapy(R-CHOP) and self-studied for the rest of the year. I was lucky that I was fit enough to sit for my SPM examinations at the end of the year right after my last chemotherapy session scheduled for me was completed. Or else, I wouldn't be able to successfully graduate from secondary school. I had a lot of people telling me to just skip the examinations and relax for a bit, but my stubbornness got the better of me. I was determined enough then and thankfully, I did alright. At least I could fully focus on getting myself treated without worrying that I did not complete even my most basic education in Malaysia.

At the end of 2010, I went for a PET scan. My tumour did shrink, but it was still there.

When 2011 came, I went for radiotherapy this time. I had 25 fractions done.

I thought I was on the road to recovery at long last, but unfortunately…no.

A few days before my scheduled PET scan, I felt extreme soreness at the right side of my abdomen. It made me lose sleep at night, and my coughing fit was back. The oncologist in charge of my treatment for radiotherapy felt something near my right kidney. I went for a PET scan the very next day, and found out that my cancer had spread again. New tumours surrounded both my kidneys once more and my lower spine. Radiotherapy was crossed out from the possible ways of treatment, since the radiation will damage my kidneys, affecting their function tremendously.

I had three more cycles of chemotherapy(R-ICE) done. This proved effective for awhile, but after every session - the cancer would get aggressive and we went back to square one. Finally, it was decided that I was to undergo an autologous stem cell transplant. I had my stem cells harvested, and I went through a few days of high-dose chemotherapy before the transplant. I was hospitalised for a month. I had zero immunity, and blood infections which caused high fever haunted me. I made more trips back to the hospital to rid of the infections.

I am currently under quarantine and recuperating from the transplant; dealing with the side effects from both the transplant and my radiotherapy sessions - causing breathing problems, dizziness, fatigue, etc. The latter is the cause of a now weak heart.

I went for another 27 fractions of radiotherapy due to a tumour above my left kidney discovered by a PET scan in December 2011. My left kidney has lost its function.

Through another bout of coughing, I was advised to go for a chest X-ray and have an ultrasound done at the abdominal area. It is confirmed that my cancer relapsed for the third time. I am now under a new kind of medication.

***
So much had happened throughout me battling cancer.

Other than the physical challenges I have to go through, I also have to deal with my decreasing level of self-esteem and emotional health.

I do admit, I am a typical girl when it comes to me wanting to look pretty. You may call it vanity, but I say it's just me wanting to look presentable and good.

Imagine, I went bald twice; not once, but twice! Surprisingly, no tears came! (I later realised that it’s the process of waiting for my hair to grow again that’s truly challenging.)

This time, I hope I can truly make a full recovery and do my bit for the community. Also, hopefully my cancer journey as a teenager managed to inspire you and give you a more positive outlook on life. Quite a number of us assume that cancer only affects adults. On the contrary, I am a living example that that mindset is certainly untrue. It's not for me to tell you how to live your life, but you only live once, so treasure your life and your loved ones while you still can. Stop and smell the roses once in awhile, and you'll find that life is so fulfilling with just happiness and good health. A successful career, good grades - definite bonuses and great goals, but with life being so unpredictable; you'll never know what might happen next. Be content with what you already have, count your blessings and live life to the fullest without any regrets.

Believe me, I'm speaking from personal experience.

***
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Hello readers.

I have a lot to blog about actually.

But recent events are making me feel tired, emotionally.

I'll update when said events resolve.

For now, to those of you who wonder - I am doing alright for now. I'm recuperating at home, living every single day knowing it is a blessing that I am still living.

I hope my readers stay safe and happy.

Take care, and cheers.

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Hello readers!

As I'd mentioned in my previous post, I talked about publishing a guest article here. This article is written by Mr. David Haas. The summary of the article, in his words, is as written below:

The article attached, which I recently completed, is about the benefits of fitness and eating healthy during and after a diagnosis of any kind of cancer. Each different cancer has its limitations, but if one can keep a healthy body, they can have a better chance to overcome this awful disease.

~David Haas

With that, I sincerely apologise to David due to the delay in publishing his article. He sent it to me in early February, but since my Internet was down and I was tired from radiotherapy and its side effects, I'm only putting this up now.

Do enjoy, and feel free to leave your thoughts and comments!

*****
Walking Off the Cancer

by David Haas
Imagine feeling nauseous, weak and exhausted incessantly on a daily basis. Unfortunately, cancer patients have to confront this battle every day. Cancer on its own is enough to drain a person of their energy, not to mention the tiring cancer treatments. It's undoubtedly a struggle simply transitioning from sitting to standing, let alone trying to utilize your remaining energy to exercise. Whether you have recently been diagnosed, are currently going through cancer treatments or are a cancer survivor, the benefits of exercising during this particular time in your life can be a life-altering experience.

The ability to improve one’s quality of life or boost your energy levels are just a couple of the positive results that can come from exercising when you have cancer. One very reliable source, the Better Health Channel, provides several advantages of exercising when coping with cancer. The benefits go well beyond merely boosting energy levels and into the realm of physical improvement. This enlightening site states that the functioning of your heart and lungs can improve, your seemingly absent appetite can reappear, nausea and vomiting may decrease, your sleeping cycle may be strengthened, pain will become less prominent (endorphins released during exercise have the power to ward off pain), your digestion can improve and finally, exercising can improve your mood.

The benefits of exercise that accompany cancer patients work the same for cancer survivors, whether it's improved cardiovascular function, increased energy levels or a better quality of life. There are also scientific facts that support exercising when you have cancer. Again, the Better Health Channel offers sound facts saying that routine exercise has the potential to assist the body in producing more white blood cells and to increase the immune system function, which can lead to less days spent in hospitals and can even lengthen your rate of survival. The mere possibility of increasing survival rate should be enough to motivate you to take that extra step in the battle against cancer.

Deciding what type of exercise is best for you and when to exercise is essential. You certainly don't want to push yourself too hard. Certain types of cancer require different degrees of exercise. Mesothelioma sufferers (as with most types of cancer) need to gradually adapt to exercise and build their way up. Walking or jogging is probably the best bet since they're both low intensity yet effective. The Better Health Channel insists you do not exercise within 24 hours after receiving chemotherapy. Experts recommend participating in moderate activity for twenty minutes or less each day. Clearly, the perks associated with exercising during this difficult time in your life can be astronomical and possibly a matter of life or death.

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Shin.1966 - 2009. "She lives forever in the hearts of those who knew her, and know of her."
I watched a documentary about her battle against cancer on Mediacorp's Channel 8 in 2008, back when I was still fifteen. I was really touched by her strong will and constant optimism despite her condition.

I found her blog and sent her an e-mail, expressing how wowed I am by her. All I wanted then was to tell her to keep up the good fight, and she was doing at good job at it; I learnt a lot about life in that one night through her documentary and blog entries than in my fifteen years of living life - complaining and whining when I was actually one lucky brat. I honestly didn't expect her to reply.

Guess what? She did.

I would like to share her reply to me with all of my readers. It also works as a reminder to me that I should keep up the good fight as well. I hope she doesn't mind, but I personally don't think she will; bless her good soul.

11th November 2008.

Leonie,

Thanks for your kind e-mail. It's taken me a while to respond because I only just saw it. I look at my Gmail account once every week or so. This Yahoo account is more reliable if you want to contact me.

I truly appreciate your words of praise and encouragement.

You say that you're a 15-year-old Malaysian student and that you're not good with words? You should know that your short note was more articulate, well-written, and intelligently expressed than most of the comments I've been getting - many of them, adult professionals.

I don't know what you plan on doing with your future, but with your gift of expression, I think you've got a bright future ahead of you, professionally. And more important, you seem to have a maturity and insight beyond your age. I'm betting that you go on do something great with your life - not in terms of money or fame, but something that will make a difference to the people and the community around you.

Thanks, and good luck to you.

Shin

*** Shin had really good foresight. Even if I personally don't think so, I guess my friends, acquaintances, and strangers who have got to know of my cancer journey will agree that I did manage to 'make a difference to the people and the community around me.'

Rest in peace, Shin. My only regret then was that I didn't get to reply your e-mail in time. Cancer took you away not long after, and this will always bug my conscience for being such a procrastinator.

But you have enlightened me in so many ways, and you continue to live in my heart as my inspiration to keep up the good fight.

Keep up the good fight. That should work well as a personal motto.

To my readers who want to know more of this amazing person, do visit her blog at http://shinscancerblog.blogspot.com and watch the documentary I watched by clicking on this link.

Thank you Shin. Thank you for making such a difference to my life.

©Photo of Shin belongs to her family members.

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Hello readers.

I have a lot to blog about actually.

But recent events are making me feel tired, emotionally.

I'll update when said events resolve.

For now, to those of you who wonder - I am doing alright for now. I'm recuperating at home, living every single day knowing it is a blessing that I am still living.

I hope my readers stay safe and happy.

Take care, and cheers.

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Hello readers!

As I'd mentioned in my previous post, I talked about publishing a guest article here. This article is written by Mr. David Haas. The summary of the article, in his words, is as written below:

The article attached, which I recently completed, is about the benefits of fitness and eating healthy during and after a diagnosis of any kind of cancer. Each different cancer has its limitations, but if one can keep a healthy body, they can have a better chance to overcome this awful disease.

~David Haas

With that, I sincerely apologise to David due to the delay in publishing his article. He sent it to me in early February, but since my Internet was down and I was tired from radiotherapy and its side effects, I'm only putting this up now.

Do enjoy, and feel free to leave your thoughts and comments!

*****
Walking Off the Cancer

by David Haas
Imagine feeling nauseous, weak and exhausted incessantly on a daily basis. Unfortunately, cancer patients have to confront this battle every day. Cancer on its own is enough to drain a person of their energy, not to mention the tiring cancer treatments. It's undoubtedly a struggle simply transitioning from sitting to standing, let alone trying to utilize your remaining energy to exercise. Whether you have recently been diagnosed, are currently going through cancer treatments or are a cancer survivor, the benefits of exercising during this particular time in your life can be a life-altering experience.

The ability to improve one’s quality of life or boost your energy levels are just a couple of the positive results that can come from exercising when you have cancer. One very reliable source, the Better Health Channel, provides several advantages of exercising when coping with cancer. The benefits go well beyond merely boosting energy levels and into the realm of physical improvement. This enlightening site states that the functioning of your heart and lungs can improve, your seemingly absent appetite can reappear, nausea and vomiting may decrease, your sleeping cycle may be strengthened, pain will become less prominent (endorphins released during exercise have the power to ward off pain), your digestion can improve and finally, exercising can improve your mood.

The benefits of exercise that accompany cancer patients work the same for cancer survivors, whether it's improved cardiovascular function, increased energy levels or a better quality of life. There are also scientific facts that support exercising when you have cancer. Again, the Better Health Channel offers sound facts saying that routine exercise has the potential to assist the body in producing more white blood cells and to increase the immune system function, which can lead to less days spent in hospitals and can even lengthen your rate of survival. The mere possibility of increasing survival rate should be enough to motivate you to take that extra step in the battle against cancer.

Deciding what type of exercise is best for you and when to exercise is essential. You certainly don't want to push yourself too hard. Certain types of cancer require different degrees of exercise. Mesothelioma sufferers (as with most types of cancer) need to gradually adapt to exercise and build their way up. Walking or jogging is probably the best bet since they're both low intensity yet effective. The Better Health Channel insists you do not exercise within 24 hours after receiving chemotherapy. Experts recommend participating in moderate activity for twenty minutes or less each day. Clearly, the perks associated with exercising during this difficult time in your life can be astronomical and possibly a matter of life or death.

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